[That's usually the case for people who think they can take everything on themselves, because they never really know how to take their own needs into account, and if they do, it's usually through some kind of inward march. And that's not really how relationships go, right? There have been tons of times when they've done that exact thing for each other- so many now that it's getting increasingly difficult to say who's saved who more.
He's figuring it out a little; but he's a slow learner. They just got done talking about baggage, and maybe this is some of the stuff he carries along with him, like that explanation of the house he's getting too big for, and in that case, he'd be a turtle and all that dumb shit from his childhood would be the shell he's itching to get out of. Ready, actually, to stop questioning himself and stop feeling like he's always going to be too much for people. Or drag them down.
And, yeah, he's gotten used to the quiet pauses in between conversations they have. He knows Dave is going through an internal process at the moment, and awkward or not, he just watches him until his lips part to start. Patience here has always gone well rewarded, and he doesn't... really have reason to believe otherwise.
It's kind of surprising to hear that he's wrong, and even a little more surprising at how much Ryuji's okay with being wrong to begin with.
If anything, too, Dave's never made a promise to Ryuji that he didn't keep. Told him that their timeline was wrong when he felt it, when they were both close to non-existence. A promise to tell each other if they start messing things up. And now, here, an offer to tell Ryuji if he's ever asking too much from him. His shoulders slump downward, and he nods.
Suddenly, it feels really dumb that he didn't just come here the second he saw Ren's name gone from the terminal at their shared room. And it feels like maybe he was thinking too much about not inconveniencing each other to just be fucking okay with the idea that... yeah, it'd be nice to sleep here. It'd be nice to drape an arm around his boyfriend until he passes out, giving him something to hold onto when anything could just be gone in the blink of an eye.]
Alright. [He bites down on his bottom lip, sucking it inward. Alright.] You haven't lied to me before and I don't, uh. Yeah I don't see you starting now. Promise accepted.
Thanks. I mean, y'know. I'll try to stop worrying too much, too. It helps! It definitely helps.
[Which, pretty much leaves-]
So, yeah. Let's kick this sleepover off. Sorry in advance... if I snore or anything. Or drool really unattractively. Probably better if you do get my pillow anyway, since at least that'll, uh. Be contained to a place only I gotta live with.
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He's figuring it out a little; but he's a slow learner. They just got done talking about baggage, and maybe this is some of the stuff he carries along with him, like that explanation of the house he's getting too big for, and in that case, he'd be a turtle and all that dumb shit from his childhood would be the shell he's itching to get out of. Ready, actually, to stop questioning himself and stop feeling like he's always going to be too much for people. Or drag them down.
And, yeah, he's gotten used to the quiet pauses in between conversations they have. He knows Dave is going through an internal process at the moment, and awkward or not, he just watches him until his lips part to start. Patience here has always gone well rewarded, and he doesn't... really have reason to believe otherwise.
It's kind of surprising to hear that he's wrong, and even a little more surprising at how much Ryuji's okay with being wrong to begin with.
If anything, too, Dave's never made a promise to Ryuji that he didn't keep. Told him that their timeline was wrong when he felt it, when they were both close to non-existence. A promise to tell each other if they start messing things up. And now, here, an offer to tell Ryuji if he's ever asking too much from him. His shoulders slump downward, and he nods.
Suddenly, it feels really dumb that he didn't just come here the second he saw Ren's name gone from the terminal at their shared room. And it feels like maybe he was thinking too much about not inconveniencing each other to just be fucking okay with the idea that... yeah, it'd be nice to sleep here. It'd be nice to drape an arm around his boyfriend until he passes out, giving him something to hold onto when anything could just be gone in the blink of an eye.]
Alright. [He bites down on his bottom lip, sucking it inward. Alright.] You haven't lied to me before and I don't, uh. Yeah I don't see you starting now. Promise accepted.
Thanks. I mean, y'know. I'll try to stop worrying too much, too. It helps! It definitely helps.
[Which, pretty much leaves-]
So, yeah. Let's kick this sleepover off. Sorry in advance... if I snore or anything. Or drool really unattractively. Probably better if you do get my pillow anyway, since at least that'll, uh. Be contained to a place only I gotta live with.